REEEVEEEEEENGEEEEEEEEE!!!!! IT'S GOING TO BE AMAZING! LOL A-MAZING!

I have one year...one year to make some decisions. One year to take back decisions. One year to make things right for myself, and for the people I care about. I have one year until I change everything, and finally being happy...oh happiness, you leave me at the strangest of times. I just want everything to be like it was back in the day...when nothing really mattered, and I was allowed to make mistakes. I just want this to be over with and no one to get hurt, and I just want everything to turn out for the best, no matter what that means. After all, a lesson learned, is a lesson learned, and I'm pretty much always willing to learn. I guess...we'll see boys...and girls!

it doesn't feel like sophmore year...

it doesn't feel like anything...I don't feel like anything...i don't know how that happens, but it does and I hate it. ok i lied. i feel like I'm empty, unfufillled, lonely, confused, ignored, incapable, insecure, unsure, insignificant, a failure, a loser, a loner, ugly, worthless, powerless, immature, and sad. So yes, I feel something, but at this point I wish I didn't...

it starts with a movie, that's sad and depressing, but full of hope...and somehow, the hope doesn't stick. the sad a depressing does. you cry and think of how their sorrows relate to yours, and then you thik about your sorrows. and you think some more...and eventually that's all you think about cause it feels like that's all you've got...then you think about where you wish you were and what you wish you had...you think about who you've left behind, and who you missed out on, what you'll never have and all the things that you want...and eventually it all becomes too much. it has all become too much, and I'm sad...about what, I couldn't tell you. Just about life...about my life. What i've got and what i don't and what i'm doing, and what i'm not. what i wish i could be doing, and why i can't do it, and....that's it....i'm done...so i'm gonna go be sad now...

...it doesn't feel like sophomore year

tonight is the st. patrick's day party. no one's going to come cause no one loves us except for our puppy...he's sleeping in his crate and being good. not hurting anyone and he never has so i dont' know how anyone doesn't like him...
i really don't get what's going on. nothing feels right anymore, and there might as well only be the two of us cause she acts like she hates us anyways...which whatever i guess there's nothing we can do...caring sure hasn't helped so far, so i'm officially given up. I just hope that she finds what she's looking for.
AND...I am officially poorer than i've ever been, EVER in my life...so hope that works out too. I really want to go home for easter, but again I have no money, and I don't really feel like driving there for nothing. maybe someone will come to save me from my nashville sorrows...



OH and puprle hair...lol





....I laughed!

boooooo!...my mom just called me and told me that my cat died...well, not MY cat, but one of the cats....soooooo sad! poor thing!

So last week was spring break, and I went to Chicago to see wicked! The trip was amazing, and I can't wait to go back! Saturday, Sunday, and Monday we stayed with my mom's friend Nella, and that was actually a lot more fun than i thought it would be. We shopped a lot, and ate a lot of Polish food, and it was great! Then, they all started speaking in Polish and I was the only one out of the club! But it was fun anyways! Tuesday we headed downtown to the hotel, and that night we saw the show! It was a million times better than I ever expected it to be....EVER!! WICKED IS AMAZING! I cried it was so good! The rest of the trip we spent shopping in Wicker Park, Sightseeing on Michigan Ave., and museum hopping in the Loop! It was so much fun! Here's some pictures!

is one of these people really going to be our next american idol?! PLEASE!! I'm a bit dissapointed to say the least...

Ok, so last night we had a party! It was amazing! The best party ever cause everyone who was supposed to come...for the most part...came, and then some! I guess some random freshman needed a party to go to so they showed up here, and there were like 25 people in our little living room! It was funny! Everything started off great! People were hanging out, drinking, smoking, having a good time...then! Terri comes out with my birthday cake...and she's completely drunk....and drops it! On the carpet! It was so funny! Everyone was laughing and then people started eating the cake off the ground!!! OMG!!! Then will and I got in a fight, and I got all emotional, and cried all over the place, and then we ran out of punch! So scott made more...with what I don't know, but it was still good! Judson put me on a mission to find out if this one kid was gay, and I failed...to find out exactly, but I have a feelign he isn't, and Terri (and I, but mostly Terri) made out with Tre...which was funny, and really unfortunate for him! lol Ok, well I have to go walk the dog
later

i guess everything's ok...we didn't talk about anything...and i'm not sure we ever will...but so far...i guess it's ok...we'll see how long this time of peace lasts...i hope it does, cause i'm sad when they're sad!

wish us luck

My newest love...his name is cooper...and he has stolen my heart, my soul...and all my attention! I love him, and that's all there is to say!

http://www.petfinder.org/fotos/TN75/TN75.5827270-1-x.jpg



so cute

We're having a Mardi Gras party! Cause I'm too poor to go home for the real thing! I'm really excited! I think it'll be a good one! I'm going to get some beads and a king cake from home hopefully! That'll make everything a lititle more like home! Maybe...!

Tomorrow=History and....well...nothing. Painting! I'm going to start painting. Here's what we're thinking:



and I'm off!


clap clap clap clap clap...clap clap clap clap...DOG SHOW

Oh and the TARGET dog won!!! He IS best in show!!!...and my life has reached an alltime low! But I don't care!
I'm going to move to New York and live in a studio apartment with my bull terrier and a nice emo boy!....or not!

Wish me luck!

the dog show is on...obviously there's nothing else, cause that's what I'm watching! I like the Bernese Mountain Dog. And the engliish bulldog...but that's just me! I miss my dogs! And my cat...CHLOE!!! She's the best cat ever!!! Sigh...

Jennifer's coming to visit in like 10 days! We're gonna have some fun, and I was thinking about having a party, but there's no one to buy....I need a fake...I need to be 21...someone else needs to be 21 cause I'm lazy!

Today I got a new set of shelves to finish off the organization of my room. It honestly took me like an hour to put it together and now I have a blister on my palm from the fuckin screw driver! The screws were so hard to screw in!

The new neighboor...Jim...is making a lot of noise. I think he's moving furniture...and it sounds like...well...like someone's moving furniture, but like they're doing it by throwing the piece across the room! Grrr...

Can you tell I'm bored?


I'm watching the dog show!


Clap clap clap clap clap clap clap clap clap...DOG SHOW!!!
(brings back memories! --PRIDE conference--and national champions--2003)

This is my husband Butch! Oh eM Gee!!!



This is what it's doing outside!



This is what we decided to do with our living room/dining room!





This is where I plan to spend the weeknd!



And this is who I'd love to join me!


(he's my husband...FYI)
(and NO you can't come too!)

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent. You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored. You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts. And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.

I think that sounds right!

Some decent pics from the 3runLead show...let me know

This weekend was pretty much amazing! It all started Friday after class. Claire and I went to Baja to grab some lunch...oh was it yummie! And then we went to Lebanon with Steven M. where we all drooled over COACH bags that we couldn't buy! (Ugh there was this travel tote that was black canvas and leather and it was huge, but it was a shoulder tote, and it was sooo cute and I wanted it soooo bad...but once again! NO MONEY!!!) We headed home around 4:30 and picked up Rachel and Sara (Sara was really sweet, but quiet...apparently she's one of the band-member's girlfriends...not sure which one...I think the drummer but who knows.) and headed back to our place. We ordered Papa Johns and painted the Kitchen and it was a good time. Then....some movie...I don't remember which one...OH leagally blonde came on and we watched it until it was time to head out to the show. Unfortunately it was raining when we left so we ran to the car and headed to the show, where 3runLead brought down the house and completely did an amazing job! I think we got back around 2...or something like that...but I slept till 4 the next day!
Then Saturday night came around and Terri and I started drinking around 8 while we got ready to go out to the show...Brandi Carlisle...which Justin Skelly was supposed to be at, but to Terri, and my dismay, he was not! So we hung around at 3rd and Linsley for a couple hours and then went over to Stephen M's....where we met a drunken Claire, and a half-empty bottle of Pinot with my name on it! Someone popped in "The Corpse Bride" and we sat there watching it...I do have to say that movies are a bit more interesting when you're...well...intoxicated! And about half-way through...not even probably, Stephen and Lou started fighting over the camera, and Claire started sharing details of her relationship that nobody wanted to hear, so we sort of postponed the movie and Terri and I headed to Waffle House to quench our hungers. Props to Terri for coming up with that idea! So the night came to a close with a great meal and good company!
Sunday rose at about 3pm and I worked on Accounting for about my entire life! Then we decided that it was time to head out to Eddie's for our mock-superbowl party, which actually only ended up being Terri, Tre, Matt and myself, but was really fun. We got the nachos of course, and the after he had to pretty much fight with our waitress to get our checks back, we headed to Tre's place wich is AMAZING! It's like a new york loft, downtown nashville, with exposed brick and industrial heating elements. Wow Terri and I were pretty much drooling! Cause it really was AMAZING!! And he has digital cable, so somehow we wound up watching the Nickelodeon GAS channel, and on came GUTS followed by THE LEGENDS OF THE HIDDEN TEMPLE!!!! It was so much fun! At about 9:30 Terri and I headed over to 3rd and Linsley to catch Teddy Gieger...but he decided not to play, so once again we went home dissapointed in a boy! lol Oh well, besides those mishaps I'd say that the weekend was a good time! And while we didn't get too much done, like we wanted...we were socially productive! And that's all that counts!

our kitchen before...







our kitchen.....now! let me know what you think of the color

Ok! So the first time I tried to write this it got lost somehow, but whatever here it goes!

Ok! So it's been 5 months shy of a year and our apartment is finally coming together! Not only have we all finally been moved in and are settled into our rooms...most of which are never clean at all, but whatever!...but we have cleared the living room of ALL boxes, accumulated all the necessary "accoutrments" that are required to tend house (vaccum, broom, toilet bowl cleaner, etc.!), and have managed to begin renovating the kitchen! Obviously there will be no big changes, but there will be some. We took down the horrible wallpaper that lined the section of wall lowly enough to be sandwiched in next t othe popcorn cieling...the top of the wall lol! That I just finished tonight actually! And tomorrow the walls will be washed and prepped for painting, which will take place this weekend. When all is done, the kitchen will be a bright, but not overpoweing shad of green that will hopefully lighten things up and pull things together. Besides the kitchen...and when it's done...I'll be taking on the project of selecting a wall to paint in the living room, and painting it! Moving on to the hallway, I think it would be a lot of fun to have a fun hallway...but that might be stretching it a little! I don't know how much painting I'll want to do when the kitchen is done but we'll see. Besides that, I had plans to paint Terri and my's bathroom but it turns out that there's an unfortunately coarse texture on the walls already and I'm not sure how much of a pain in the ass that would be to paint...and again, whether or not I would want to take on such a project once the kitchen is done.
Besides that, there isn't much going on. I just found out I have a test tomorrow and I haven't studied one lick! But it's ok cause I don't have to take it if I don't want to! Ha! How great is that! I can not take ALL of the tests and then just have the final count for all the tests...which is risky, but I've herd it's been done! But I'm going to take it anyways, and see what I get.
Ok, so that's my story I hope you like it!
Oh and I have no money!!! Like none and no job either....so we'll se how that goes!

It's between Nick and Andre....OMG I have to admit that Andre's was pretty...yeah!!!!!!! Nick is IN!!! I'm sorry that Andre has to go, but Nick's dress WAS better. Oh well alfvedersaine Andre we loved you!

Andre...you're out!